From the Girl Who Wish She Had It All Together

By TwentytwoNewThings in Blog on 22 Nov 201913 Jun 2020

We’ve all have those days where things have gone so far left that you just want to curl up, scream, and cry. THAT MOMENT when you have literally become completely fed up with yourself.

Should I quit or should I keep going?

These are typically some questions that come to mind whenever you’re working towards a new goal and the CHALLENGING part kicks in…

You know the part when you just wish that you’d never even started in the first place.

Yea, that ONE.

As soon as negative thoughts start racing through your mind, you just want to throw UP the deuces✌🏾.

But giving up is not an option, RIGHT ?

I mean there’s nothing more frustrating than struggling to find your “WHY.”

You desperately just want to know what happend to cause the FOCUS that you once had, to burn OUT.

You now have commitment issues and to be honest, you really aren’t all that determined to DO much of anything.

INSTEAD, you are left to wonder “WHY” YOU are no longer pressed to be on top of things.

Maybe you’re struggling with adjusting to your new role as a mom, finishing your book, finding a decent job, finishing your degree, or losing that weight…

But let me tell you…

Whatever it is, life is always full of challenges.

Recently, I’ve been going through these pitfall moments while blogging. I find myself constantly going back and forth on whether or not this is something connected to my PURPOSE or if I’m just going through the motions.

And honestly, I’m so annoyed with myself. I promised myself months ago before launching my website, that I would stay on top of my schedule. This includes weekly and monthly blogging tasks.

EVERY TIME I made a promise to myself to write, publish, and promote more frequently, I ended up not doing it. Instead, I allowed myself to sit and mope, __OVER__ getting off my tail and GETTING THINGS done.

FINALLY, I realized that enough was ENOUGH. It was time to build back the momentum that I needed to get back to my PURPOSE.

I mean someone, somewhere is DEPENDING on ME to do what God has called me to do.

I began searching and relying on many resources to recondition my mind, my heart, and restore my FAITH .

I read and meditated on different bible verses, self-help books and watched various YouTube vlogs. I even did lots of self-pep talks especially during my morning commute to work.

I was so determined to GAIN back my focus that I once had before. BUT finally, I realized that I just had to let things BE for a change.

Yea.. I’D love to think I have it ALL together. AND It would be nice to just magically allow everything to happen ALL at once. BAM. There it is!

But life just simply doesn’t work that way. And yall know >nothing< worth having comes easy. THAT thing called Life is just meant to be filled with challenges… not to break you, but to MAKE you. And most importantly, to strengthen and develop your character.

Yall, I HAD to make the choice to keep going.

Remember, no matter what you do, there will always be new challenges along the way. So, whatever challenge that you’re facing currently, DON’T GIVE UP. YOU were built to over||come those obstacles and YOU WILL!